22 October 2016

I'm back to my tumblr and blog.

So much has happened and I finally am truly almost at peace with myself. So this is what it feels like - to wake up and feel again. I feel free. I feel happier. I finally fought out.

2 May 2016

I'm so tired.

19 April 2016

Love yourself

You have to fight for yourself - because no one's going to fight for you, and no one's going to protect you. Even people you love and trust can throw you under the bus. We can't dance in the sun forever. Love yourself - always.

16 March 2016


Food poisoning left me bedridden for 2 days. I think that was the first time in years I was that unwell and I don't want to feel that way ever again :( Thankfully I was brought to the clinic when I couldn't even pull myself out of bed.

On an unrelated note, I think i'm finding myself in some sort of limbo. And something's lacking. Feel pretty unfulfilled and unhappy with where I am currently. I need to be more, I need to achieve more. I pray for the strength and guidance to weather the storms, and for the best of myself to shine.

That aside, too, I had a lot of free time to think about plenty of stuff today. Maybe it was driven by me stumbling onto all sorts of old stuff but, well..


28 February 2016

DB Bistro & Oyster Bar

Presenting the Grand Seafood Platter.....

The day saw me stuffing my face with seafood and a bottle of white, followed by some shopping at my all-time fav MBS... and the night saw me going through a plate of A5 wagyu, supplemented with some fried hokkien mee, orh luak and of course a bottle of red (don't ask me why the combination but it was good - minus the fact that I felt I was swimming in oil after).

Too blessed to be stressed?

I hope for more good weekends :-)

24 February 2016

2015 was challenging. I faced many new ups and downs, and many new struggles. For the first time, I truly understood the essence of "time management". It's a zero sum game really, and the struggle is real. Sometimes I look back and I wish I made better decisions. Sometimes I wish I spent more time with who really matters - and that brings me to wondering what in the world I end up doing with my time. Is my world truly only revolving around work and whatever time I can squeeze after? I feel so stretched. And I blame it partly on a side of me which is fully career driven like some sort of work bitch. I'm still finding ground, and I really need God's guidance.

April will bring a fresh beginning for me - it's both exciting and scary at the same time. I've never been one to lowball myself, but I always fear not being able to make the mark. I don't like disappointing, and I would never want to let myself or anyone who believes in me down. That aside, I sometimes wonder if I'm letting myself down - in a whole different manner. If I'm really okay, if I really can accept my lows, and be okay with my highs. I need to work out within myself if this is something good, or really just toxic.

Happiness - such a simple word. Yet so difficult to achieve. I know that God provides, but I wonder if this is truly how my life is supposed to play out. Some things push me to the brink of giving up, but yet I'm still fighting. It's getting harder and harder and I wonder if I'll ever feel like I've reached the end of a cliff. Like I'd just be free falling to my demise.

Just gotta hang in there? Okay, noted.

21 February 2016

I'M BACK (2016)

This is me coming back to writing. I do realize that I haven't been updating as much as before and I suppose its part laziness and part lack of time. 60/40. It's quite sad too because I actually enjoy writing and going through my posts - especially years down the road, laughing or smiling fondly at the memories made. I don't have a very good memory to begin with, and because I no longer play mahjong with my friends, I guess I kind of need this? Haha. Precious and indeed, priceless.

But anyway yes, here's to getting back on track and although 2 months late (since the start of the year), I'd say - better late than never! Cheers to a blessed 2016.

20 October 2015

Say you'll remember me / Standing in a nice dress, staring at the sunset, babe / Red lips and rosy cheeks /
Say you'll see me again even if it's just in your wildest dreams